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With all of my drama let me now forget to introduce Miss America 2010 - Caressa Cameron!!
I had the honor of meeting Caressa years ago at good ole American Coed. She was the VA Jr. Teen and I was competing in the Coed division. She is a doll and I could not be happier for her. She sang "Listen" from the movie Dreamgirls for talent and brought the house down! So talented. I knew immediately that Vivica A. Fox (judge) was going to LOVE her. The overall competition was a little blah and you could certainly tell who had "it" and who didn't. I was pulling for AZ (Savanna), MN (Brooke) and VA (Caressa)...so glad one of my picks won.
I wish Caressa the very best during her reign as Miss America 2010
Life is full of highs and lows; ups and downs...I get that but it seems that time and time again i go down and stay down. I can't tell you how unbelieveably frustrating it is to see so many people around you living the life and exceling at all the things I wanted for my life. It seems as though is just comes so easy to them and it like pulling teeth for me to catch a break. I won't go into all the details that have my head reeling...again but I will say that I have set my self up for yet another lenghthy discussion with my parental unit which no part of me is looking forward to.
My head is reeling...again and it's only February!!! I know that a lot of time people create the situtions that they find themselves in but seriously I'm sick of this. Whatever lesson God is trying to teach me...I get it and I'm over it and I would really appreciate some cooperation. I am not a bad person. I am intelligent, kind, sincere, hard working, and accomplished not to mention relatively good looking. With all that being said why do I feel like I am constantly being crapped on!!! It's just not fair. I don't ask for much: a decent job, quality and solid relationships, a roof over my head , food (and the occassional new pair of shoes).
I have prayed and prayed for all of the above and yet I feel my prayers go unasnwered. I am not in the business of questioning God but can you help me out and at least give me a hint as to where this is all going to end up because I am suffering, my relationships are suffering and I really don't know how much more of this I can take.
